sorry i havent updated in a long time! i've been sooooo busy with shit. like its just crazy! just school, work, college, my boyfriend! its just crazy! anyways... nothing really new... a few bad things and a lot of good things... lets start with the good things!

 

My boyfriend and I have been together for 9 months... i love him so much!

i can finally drive with people in my car! but i need the car first. but i'll be getting my mom's 1988 White Chevrolet S10 Blazer! lol. its soooo old! but it runs! lol. but i need to do a lot of stuff to it like tint the windows, new stereo, AC, and paint job. but i dont have the money! lol. :blah: 

    i think thats pretty much all the good.... but there's a few bads!

 

i'm doing really bad in school.

me and my dad argue all the time now... nothing new....

my mommy's in the hospital, she's been in there for like 5 days now... she almost had a heartattack.

and just more and more drama with all my friends at school.

i somewhat cheated on my boyfriend a while back . i told him and we're fine now.

 

     sometimes i just feel left out and i really need a friend. the only friends i have now are Zev, Adriana i think?, Seany, my baby, my brother, Ryan, and Lindsay. at times i think everyone else hates me like Nikka, Anna, Stephanie, and just everyone. i dont know whats wrong with me. whats making me lose all my close friends? its not even funny. like on Friday, i asked one of my girl-friends (atleast i think she is). i'm not saying any names but she said a lot of things that really clicked into my head. and a lot of things which made me feel horrible for myself. i dont get it. :Clueless: just so much drama right now. but i'm just stressed and confused about a lot of things.

     besides all that, my boyfriend and i are doing so great!  we love each other so much! and i know we'll be together for a long time. he means just everything to me and i know i'm the same for him. and i know that we'll have a future together. after the whole ordeal of me cheating my him, it made me realize that i couldn't continue my life without him and i knew the other guy wouldnt make me happy. i know i love him.... with all my heart! if i could get over Fernando that fast then i know the love i have for my boyfriend is real. i know it is....

 

well nothing really has been happening. just been sick for the past few days. now i'm back to work. i'm sleeping on the boat tonight with the crew and then back to work on saturday for a 3/4 day charter. thats it and then a overnight charter for sunday. atleast i'm making some money. lol. but yea.

   lately i've been laying on my ass doing nothing and just hanging out with my baby boy. i love my boyfriend so much. but yea...

 

well here's a few pics of me for a summer update. lol.

 

hey guys... sorry i havent updated in a while, but i know only one person reads them. lol. KOJI!!! anyways... nothing too exciting.... but yea. a little drama with my mom too. lets just say i told her something that a mother does not want to hear from their daughter. and i'm not PREGNANT!

 

working and making $$$$

being with my baby! 2 more days its going to be 6 great months!

hanging out at home.

me and my baby, have a baby of our own.... A PUPPY!!!!

my mom is pissing me off

sleeping in all day only on the weekdays! (sometimes)

 

but yea... anyways... me and my boyfriend have been doing great. just a few problems down the road but we each other so much. but yea... i my honey bunny so much!

 

   well today was ok. the day went by really fast. it was an easy day. but yea. anyways... today was Career Day. and the Santa Monica Pier was offering jobs for the summer and i applied for one. i applied for a party host and a game attendant. its only minimum wage but it's good enough. atleast it pays for my bills. lol. but yea... plus i got my dad's boat to work on on the weekends. 

   later got home around 300pm. hung out with my grandpa's house. then went to the bank and deposited some money. i need to start saving money. i'm so much in debt from spending all my money on clothes this winter. lol. so yea... well thats it. ttyl!

 

   well today 2 of my best friends, Adriana and Nikka got mad at each other. and i really want them to stop. i cant see my friends being mad at each other. plus i hate seeing Nikka cry. ya know? it breaks my heart that i might lose a friend for taking someone's side, which i'm not. but yea... i really want them to solve this and get over it. but i dont know whose right. its hard to think when i have a lot of thought going into it too.